Words Fall From The Brain Above Mine

I’m just going to start writing. I could leap off the end of my psyche into a massive void of empty blissfulness and indulge Nirvana. Or I could put on Sliver.

Hey I liked that one. Stream of consciousness however I still retain editing powers of this shit because it is falling out of my brain at nearly lightspeed. Nearly in the other direction of course, because my thoughts are a billion times faster than light. I am faster. I CAN MAKE NOISE

There’s something going on here. There’s a pattern to the universe and it is decipherable. The whole thing stretches into randomeness but where man dwells there are patterns and where there are patterns, there are things for man to wield. All we do is read and calculate in various forms. We eat and regurgitate and we become. We are adaptable and so equivocality is our conviction. Man’s nature is changing and in various modes and swings continuously.
The only reason people seem to be permanent or even a ‘type’ of person, is because they are like one specific point frozen in the motion of a grandfather clock. They are all that it was and is at that point in it’s swing.
We are all Puppets Adrian. It’s just that some of us can see the strings.

Onto Self Examination.

Comedy Vs. Music

What’s the difference really? Don’t you fucking play that shit, you know they feel different. You like comedy more because it’s talking, and you love to talk. Or at least listen, you like to communicate. Music is communication. See where we get? Listen, shit hole, music is a discipline that is more like a priesthood than anything else. You devote yourself to sound and become it’s vehicle in a way unlike speaking. You speak with Gods when you play and to commune only with the Gods is to lose relation with Man, and Man is with whom the interest lies. Comedy. How can you write so beautifully of Music and then dismiss it as something you won’t do? Because, I understand myself. At some level beneath all the theatrical grungy poetry I know that I will learn and speak the things I think people need to hear. I have become lost in egotism and becoming famous by trying so hard to ignore that part of me I gave it power and was overcome in its torrent. That’s why Josh is stupid. YOU are more than that, or this is some way to reassure yourself. Believe whatever you want, you built it that way for that purpose. This is written like a goddamn child. Jesus H.P. Fiddle Faddle. I guess that’s the drugs part. Drugs have a way of setting an eisel up on the corner of your mind and soul and turning the center into a cosmic magnet that rips you into it and spits you back out onto the canvas all over the world. Stop fitting. You don’t need to. Their lines mean nothing to you. They aren’t the enemy, the enemy was your sight. You saw them as the enemy and so they became that and they defined you by their opposition which never existed. You defined you. People either define themselves by measuring the distance between them and other things (Negative) or by Becoming things and assimilating them into their lives and then leaving them for other things (Positive) Maybe I should use Oppositional and Conducive? Fuck, I’m out of water. This is your fault God.

 

 

Bed of Woes

Brick by brick by brick was built by hands
That were never sturdy.
Sopping wet and unclean
Always in between

Halfway from anywhere and I was blinked off the road

Junkie trainyards horded monsters
When the wind promised dreams
And the living don’t leave
But the Dead don’t sleep

Halfway from anywhere and I was blinked off the road

Little nothingtown holds no hope
But the hope of no hope
And maybe you can relax
Knowing it’ll all be so easy

Old shoes collect dust.
The world turns.
The only scars that stick
Are ones from which you learn.

Halfway from anywhere and I was blinked off the road

 

I think Acid, at least for me, takes and objectifies my whole thought process so I can look at things with all of my clarity but none of my fucking essence. The essence is the beast man, the Devil, the Demon, the False Ego, That Yellow Bastard. It’s like God flicked you in the noggin and reminded you that you were just in your room, there’s a whole Out Here going on kid. Don’t worry about it, it’s nothing to worry about really. If you wanna obsess over something you will, and that’s how life seems to mean things. You wrap all your mysteries up in a longterm goal and obsess over every shade of the color of the prize until you get it and then you remember that it was just you the whole time.

I feel immaculately cognisant, Yet childishly incappable.
WHY DO I CARE IF SOMEONE LIKES THAT? BECAUSE IT MAKES ME VALID. A RESPONSE IS VALIDITY. BECAUSE YOUR MIND IS HOLY AND IS EMPTY AS IT IS FULL AND THINGS SUCH AS VALIDITY ONLY EXIST IN THE PHYSICAL AND SO THEY NEED THE PHYSICAL TO DEFINE THEM.

That’s why pragmatic people can justify faith. There’s no floor beneath you in your head. Just more you.
Was all this productivity a product of the drug or just the drug loosening up your rusty psychic machines? Does it matter? Not really, you feel better and no one is dead. Do we really have to wake God up to ask him about a dumb question like this?

I don’t believe in God. I believe he exists as an affected force within me, just as the Devil and countless other collections of ideas that assemble themselves out of me. Or perhaps Jungian psychology is a plaything for the egotistical and insane?

Advertisements are stupid. The people who think this have a habit of calling them Adverts. They advertise their individuality by making fun of something that happens avidly enough to become a colloquailism. What does that have to with anything? See? Sometimes, you are JUST HIGH, but that’s okay too kiddo. We mosey on.

Writing on acid kicks ass though, for sure on that one. If I had to talk to someone write now and entertain them, I would eat my own head in protest. See that? You wrote WRITE instead of RIGHT. Pens always have outweighed Morals huh?
You demand immediate feedback, so you give it to yourself, and it confuses you because it shouldn’t happen like that, but it did. Now you’re toying with the notion of being able to catch up with something that is you and how it can even be ahead of you in the first place. And there it is. It never was ahead of you, there never was an Ahead to have possession of. You made it up, because you wanted it. Now you have to understand why you made the choice.

I should really record more of my thoughts on a regular basis. I bitched about my own ability to write while simultaneously being able to bitch about people not just allowing themselves to do shit. See, man? You think a lot, that’s for sure. I don’t really understand how far that gets you, but if you’re the one walking I suppose I don’t care.

You have an uncanny preoccupation with WHY?

You also have few racketball walls because you don’t share much of yourself because you imagine they have their shit figured out more than you do, and that’s why they’re stable. They are not stable. They are frantic like you. Running every which way to find some shred of meaning that they don’t even understand how to allocate. I understand. You set the opposites in motion and they burn all the way into the most intricate level of horseshit you wanna go to, because anything looks crazy under a kaleidoscope but it’s always one tint, because you chose two certain opposites. Choose a different two, and that’s a new universe.

I just want a firetornado. I’ve always wanted a firetornado. I want proof. I want to see a point of Immaculate Convergence and witness the big bang. But, you know, who goes to the game after that? Can you be a Regular Holy Dude?

A Living being made of philosophy(Not a livingbeing MADE of Philosophy) is only a masturbation of logic. We all have the same point. We all eat different dinners and throw up the same bile. It would only figure a biological metaphor would be the one I chose to accentuate the largeness of being.

You either like that you like what you like or you don’t like that you like what you like but you like what you like and acceptance makes you a monster but rejection makes you insane. People generally gravitate from one side to the other steadily, depending on the seasons.

If you are truly open minded, why would I have to present my ideas in any particular manner for you to consider them?

Open Minded=Room for Doubt.
God=Effective fullness=no room for doubt=faith=opium of people=psychic dopamine (Or what dopamine looks like on the inside of your mind)
Devil=The material. The insignificant looking significant. The Cobra Hood. Mind your snake though.

My conscioiusness zeros in on Deftones sliding back down the electromagnetic specturm into a feral rage. Desperate and insane. The ferocity in the music is impossible to ignore, regardless of it’s technical value. Technically, it’s boring but if that’s all you rely on, you’re not an adaptable listener.

I think adaptability is the ultimate goal. Motion. Water. Fire. Air. Earth represents death because she is rigid, you also make your house on death. There’s always bones in the basement. That’s the tao. You must fill your container, your container can change into whatever it wants. (And that notion is the seed to Freedom in Surrender) Descended from the Tao….In my so eloquent History of Thought. HA, look at you with the big dick. You only have it when you’re behind those words but in those words, you got game kid.

A lot of people like things because you can’t be against the man unless you’re this kind of hip.
If the underground has flavors, it’s a fucked up place.
I want to give them what they want. Because it’s what I want. I want for you to get what you want because I know it doesn’t matter.

Rap over the Willie The Pimp beat

Jugs partially full of water, yes. Stare at windows media player, yes. Become immersed in timeless dopeness.

I must write these manuscripts so that they may be burned so I can realize they were never necessary in the first place. You could be nuts.

Watch me be glorified and stoned
Watch me dance in convictions
Painted on flowing canvas
My eyes are a river of time
And I could not make you sense.

Could you smith sense?
Out of the senseless?
Or is that just crazy?
You can divide yourself up enough until you think you don’t exist but you always will. God Dammit you always will.

I fill Nothings. Even if it hurts.

Trucker Jesus. He’s an Amer-I-CAN. He could fuck an elk, to death. His beard could wake up in the middle of the night and murder an innocent grizzly bear in the alaskan cold. He sweats oil, shits bullets, wipes with steel wool, and he fuckin’ hates you.

Advertisements are actually hilarious. So are Chicken Nuggets. The word nugget. It just makes me wanna grab a fucking NYUGGETAH Chicken…stuff…and cram it into some honey mustard. It’s astounding how the word mustard is almost retard, and for some reason other than morphology, I find that hilarious. Shit, that in itself is fucking goofy. But I like it. and I like that I like it, which means we have motion. Now we’re cooking. Now drop the pans. I understand how we work but I cannot control it.

Awareness is not Control. It is aware and that is all. Aware of what? Yeah, that’s the scary part. That’s the dead part of space.

You’re not a genius. DO NOT EVER FORGET THAT. You’ve never been better, you never will be intrinsically better than anyone. You’re smart, that’s all you got. Those are your biceps.

Perhaps I am infatuated with the Sonic Priest as he is with the Glyph Priest.
The union makes music. The vocals and the beat. The throat and the heart.
Or something like that.

There’s a weird literalism to metaphors that make them so tasty. It IS that way, not just in a nifty comparison. Maybe they show the underlying synchronization in our lives? Little bit?

Now I have thoughts of making this an actual document, and thereby I hold it to standards and therefore, I limit it. I sequestered the potential in it I saw and now it is fallible. Now they are squabblings of a stoned kid and my validity is gone. Fucking classifications.

I dunno man, what do you think?

I can question with the best of ’em.
What if insects caused us to develop fear and so they don’t need to grow large?

Might my diction entice you to my sophistries?

Never expect anything out of a trip. You will kill it. Just do normal shit, and dig it up.
COPY YOUR BROWSING HISTORY AND SEND ALL THIS TO YOUR BROTHER.

If he thinks you’re a crazyperson, fuck ’em. Prove it to him then. Either way, I hope he reads this and considers it, regardless of what I think it means. Maybe just for the sake of consideration, or to beat off his powers of reason. Whatever. I just wanna share with you what’s happening up in my head.

if you want to remember something, tell yourself you’re going to forget it. Then you will obsess over it until you can’t think about anything but it. Problem solved. Activate Fear. Pilot your instincts, consciously. Maybe he’s the only person you’d trust to decipher your lists of nonsense and do it right.

If you can see a problem, the solution is within sight. If you can touch it you can catch it.

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